Saturday, May 29, 2010
Symptoms of addiction very prominent.
Motivation at an all time low.
What triggers these binges?
Binges of desperation, binges of running away from the truth.
I dont know, but i do know that everyone is addicted to something, it "the thing" that makes all the difference.
Am watching 'celebrity rehab with Dr Drew' now a days.
What startled me the most is how people fall from grace.
Substance abuse takes everything in a instance.
I find it boring for a blog like mine to just crib about stuff.
Perhaps it is sad that I will look back at my posts and find that I have been cribbing all my life.
And never f*****g changed.
Don't know how i'll change, but one thing is for sure. I DO WANT TO CHANGE!
Posted by This is the life at 11:02 PM
Monday, May 24, 2010
Right now, its about time for the month to end.
My exams ended as the last month ended.
Had planned for a whole bunch of stuff to do after exams.
Got a few books from the library.
Planned on a few topics to write and learn about.
But in actual I did nothing.
I escaped with my normal routes.
Played a ton of games, slept, watched movies, listened to some music, wasted a bunch of time.
Did everything except what I wanted to do.
I think I know why I did so, but its hard to change. Its hard..... its hard.
It is sad that I broke the boundaries in the first place, but right now I am what I let myself be and I cant run away no more.
Just cant run away no more.
Posted by This is the life at 5:03 PM
Types of thoughts and some thoughts about them.
These may not be all of them, but tries to cover the majority of them at least.
Type A: Thoughts on being grandiose. These thoughts are compelling and give sleepless nights. But dim with time and are not that troublesome.
Type B: Depressing thoughts. Never thought that i'd say this but I like these thoughts, it keeps a person in touch with reality. Makes you work hard. But dont really know what toll it takes on the body.
Type C: Random thoughts. Not troublesome at all. Can pretty much be controlled and are very creative at times.
Type D: Worst of all, the thoughts on sex. Never can stop these thoughts. The animal in me tries to break free every time. Hard to control as the body is involved too. Thinking on how to curb these thoughts, the only thing that comes to mind is to change lifestyle completely.
I really want to avoid thinking about sex.
I think it is natural for a person to think about it but i dont really like the unproductive associated with it. It makes quite study times hell, and living as you want a pain.
My persona.(O))))))))))))))))) Kamekamehaa!!!!!
Whenever anyone talks to you, show love.
Try to avoid talking.
Introvertly, keep learning what you want to learn.
Learn to talk about the education you have had.
Learn to talk about your idols.
Learn to talk about your passion.
Learn to talk about psychology, talk about spirituality.
Posted by This is the life at 4:38 PM
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