Thursday, April 22, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Day 1 :
Contemplating death seems to have made me work for a day... It would be funny if I misspelled day as gay.
Somehow I am more pious, had the need to believe in or call to god.
Things seem possible, I think I remember at least a shadow of my former self.
Future looks possible, relationships seems important, task seem worth doing, life seems worth living.
But this condition is heavily dependent on the emotional state which is not necessarily reproducible everytime.
Thus the possibility of my shadow manifesting into a reality still looks like a distant dream.
But dreams are worth living, so surely life seems worth a try.
Additionally, Morning revelation 2 : Body and mind are separate.
Body cant really be controlled, the only real control in the body is habit.
So don't pick up bad habits, as the body can change your thought process.
You don't want to discover you did something you never wanted to do.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Net is my escape.
Sleep is my escape.
Manga is my escape.
Anime is my escape.
I check mail incessantly.
I smoke and drink regularly.
Escape is all I do.
Escape is all I care for.
I try and change, but cant change.
Is it me who is living or someone else.
" I change shapes just to hide in this place but I'm still I'm still an animal
Nobody knows it but me when I slip yeah I slip I'm still an animal"
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
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